Dates to remember

January 16 - Birthday of friend
January 24 - Death of brother's godmother
January 25 - Birthday of friend
January 27 - Birthday of friend, birth of first child of other friend
January 29 - Death of mother, Birthday of two friends

Life is a continuous cycle of renewal and change

Bad man fi dead

I started commenting on Seeker's post "Death of a Dictator" http://jusidle.blogspot.com/ but it was too long for just a comment so i've decided to post it instead.

"Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us". This line from the Lord's Prayer is a fundamental part of Christianity. I don't think other religions or rational thinking persons for that matter can really fault this view. It's quite healthy, very civilsed and all that.

That doesn't stop me one whit from being happy that Saddam is dead, that he was not accidentally killed, and that quite a few persons were there to see it happen. Moreover I do take a certain satisfaction in the ignominy of his execution. I will put forward the controversial view that I needed him to die in a manner similar to one that he has inflicted on others before I can start to forgive. I will go so far as to say he got his just desserts.

The Wicked Warlock of the East is dead, Long live the Wicked Warlock of the West

New Year

Happy New Year to all my adoring fans!

I'd just like to thank God for giving me friends who convinced me to start a blog last year. Now they could finally breath a sigh of relief and say "Thank God now I don't actually have to listen to her anymore"

To my coworkers, family members, friends, romantic interests et al who have inspired these numerous posts. Thank you for providing me with so much to do in my obvious abundance of free time. What would I have done without that axe , the grinder, the whet stone and the substance for the things I jab about? A million thanks just... aren't... enough.

For those whom I have left out don't take it personally, I will get around to thanking you in my own way.

Oncew again Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!

A sigh on the breeze

You're a song I sing on the grey days, when the sky is blue and the flowers are bright.
The silence of the crowd makes your presence even more wanted, the absence that's absorbed by the whole.

Putting carts before horses

Bwoy. Now things like this I just shake my head over. So you have an institution and you expect that within a certain period of time the numbers of persons in this instituition are going to increase by a projected amount. When these persons do appear within your established time frame, why is it only months after their arrival that you realize you have a problem accommodating them. The facilities you provide them with have not increased in any way and you are in fact planning on bringing in yet more persons to meet your quota.

Now that just ain't right.

Dark Caverns

Sometimes those moments loom suddenly like a car crash. Literal waves of despair, dark and dank, overbearing. Panic threatens. All inferiorities magnified and unbalanced. Contexts changed chaotically. Some months will be fine , some months won't. So far there's never been a time where the wave lasted for more than a few minutes before the sea calmed. The waves continue coming even wih no disturbances in the area. On the whole I don't think I can be prepared even if I get a two week weather forecast. The best I hope for is to endure the ride.

New Fave

Have found a site (courtesy of my big bro) called http://www.crunchyroll.com which allows me to watch streaming videos of all my favourite animes. This is the best quality site I've seen , I mean it definitely tops everything. Literally I've been spending hours after work just sitting down and watching back to back episodes of Bleach, and when I'm finished I'll be doing the same thing for Cowboy Bebop.

CrunchyRoll Baby!!

Pounding the pavement?

So I've heard from one of the places I applied to, they filled the position the same week :S Still trying to get word from the other place. Wondering now if I should start hitting the pavement and beating the bushes. Ah well, I've always been told that good jobs are hard to find, especially if you're being picky so I shall think nothing of it.

Patriotism

What's the colour of patriotism? Some might argue it's the red of your blood, or the green of your land. Well my colour is copper. Yep bright metallic copper tone

The same colour and mineral structure as a ten or twenty five cent coin.

If you really want to support your country then use your "red money". It's legal tender and accepted anywhere they take Master card or Visa in this island.

Stop taking them for a joke. All too often I see people screwing up their faces and bitchin about the state of the economy and how the dollar depreciating every day. Well how the hell you expect the economy to get any better if you don't do your little part. Support your Jamaican products, and support your own damn currency! Money doesn't exist in a vacuum and very simply put if you throw away and scorn it on the ground it ain't going to sprout into a magical beanstalk. It has to be used and circulated and above all appreciated. You and your granny-horse-dead-cow-fat struggle so hard for di likkle money.

Tap fling it weh!

All the same U.S. dollar that you buying up like it going out of style, you think that's going to make your own dollar any stronger? No it Ain't. So stop with the terrorist activities. All you do, every time you get the coins, put it in a jar and at the end of the month jus go change it at the bank.

Build Jamaica, Save in Jamaica(n)

Sitting on the moon

You're a consummate friend and a real man's man
But you're not cocky. You don't limp, there's no swagger or machismo. Nope
None of that.
There's a bounce to your step that lifts you off the ground.
Separates you from the norm.

Carries you to the moon.
Cause that's where dreams go.
All the way up to the man in the moon.
That moon must get pretty heavy , what with all the ppl I've been sending up there lately.

mmm, well lookihere!
Seems like I'm sitting pretty high up myself,
"Yes thank you, I'd certainly love some tea Mr. Moon"
Still don't know how I got here but I'll certainly enjoy the view.

Blah

So I'm in this phase now where everything seems pretty blah. But it's all good. I've sent out two job applications so far, have settled on doing a certificate course in music in September, and have been dating someone for a couple of weeks. I have also spoken with some of my immediate family members and friends and they are supportive of my decision. I suppose its blah cause I've sorted out what my plans are and am making the steps to see them through.

Hmmm, considering that in a few months things will begin to get hectic I should really try and enjoy this "blah" period.

Because

Because you are my friend
Because I love you so
Because you said you cared for me and you'd miss me when I go

Because you took my heart
Because you read my mind
Because we know there's lots of time before we cross that line

Because I am an idler
Because I have the time
Because I feel these creative juices that I can't keep inside

Because this is a poem
Because this is a rhyme
Because I just don't have any other constructive thing to find to do at this time :D

Ponderings

What is the balance of time in the space between life and death?


Is it any easier to do good for the multitude or good for one when the price to yourself is constant?


I experience the world through my own being. Whatever other influences I allow in my life are still bound by this fact. Why then is it arrogant to think the world revolves around me?


Quis custodius custodiet?

Vague

I've started this so many times and never could complete it
The words inadequate, or melodramatic

I've said it and showed it,
pedantic, I shan't repeat it

Alma Mater

Hail Campion Hail
Faith and Courage will prevail
Truth, Integrity, Honour, Liberty
These shall never never fail

Shine Campion Shine
May you ever be a sign
That within our land we bring heart and hand
Reaching out in love and unity

Rise Campion Rise
Raise your banner to the skies
With your red and white leading to the height
Ever onward, upward rise

Sing Campion Sing
To our Island may you bring
Champions pure and bold like our saints of old
Brave and Loyal,
Hail oh Campion Hail

Sliding back, stepping forward

What a prekeh. Tings just a slide out a mi han den like mi deliberately a open mi han dem. Talk bout foot in moutitis, apparently it came along with the stuffy nose. Need to do some serious re -evaluation of self and interaction with other people. Mi glad seh tings work out the way dem work out all di same but lawwks :S It shoulda neva haffi go so.

Need to take things more seriously . On that score I need to tek mi head out of mi damn ass and get my act together. New job needed first, area not completely relevant, it's a means to an end. Next step, get into a music programme somewhere, preferably somewhere with steel pan, after that I can take the passion and make it work for me.

Also need to repeat the words "means to an end" everyday. Waiting in limbo is non productive , especially when I have no idea what it is I'm waiting for. Prioritise, strategize and renergize.

Yup the makings of a new years resolution. Step one check. Stepping forward with step two.

Happenings in my Area

Yesterday morning a woman down the road was held up at gunpoint and her car stolen. Praise the Lord!

This morning a man was shouting at the end of my street about someone's b*****cl*** . Thank you Lord!

Why I am I saying praise and thank you? Because I have seen worse things happen. The woman who got held up was not made to drive her car away from the scene of the crime, raped and threatened if she reported the incident. She did not have to spend agonizing months taking God knows how many different kinds of pills and injections to prevent an S.T.D. or an unwanted pregnancy. Nor the rage and guilt which is an inevitable part of rape. Praise the Lord only her car was stolen.

The man at the end of the road only shouted his rage. He did take it out on his children or baby mother with a 2 * 4 plank that has nails projecting at odd angles. He didn't launch miniature boulders at the object of his rage. Thank you Lord that you guided his heart and hands.

There are so many incidents like these that happen everywhere, everyday to people I see. When you see what's happening in your area, just stop and think, maybe it's not as bad as it could have been.

Thank Yous

So many persons have helped to shape me into the person I am today. Their advice and support whether negative or positive has altered the course of my life in some way, and I am grateful for that. In many instances it wasn't what was overtly done or not done as much as the way in which it was done.

At times it was nothing that affected me directly, simply my observations of how these persons behaved. The way they lived their lives and the way they affected others. Thank you for being you. For living life and for being alive.

The more I explore the world and my role in it is the more I realize that all persons are connected. The degree of separation varies but there remains the inextricable link to humanity in all aspects. To love the world is to love myself, to hate the world is to hate myself and to thank someone, is to acknowledge your connection to the whole.

Thank you.

Shadowing

Bwoy oh bwoy. Let me just put it on the record that one of the most important lessons I was taught by my section leader when I joined the band was how to shadow and shadow well. Having been involved in the performing arts for many years before joing the band I knew that whatever happened the show must go on. Above that the audience must never have a clue that something has gone awry.

When it come to my playing I put out a whole lot of effort, but yesterday it would appear that I had just learned to play pan and they threw me into the deep end with a concert. I had on my glasses to make matters worse. Usually when I perform on stage I remove them partially so they won't fall off and partially so I don't have to see the audience. Its easier to play that way. Yesterday there were no barriers. EEEK!! They could see me and worse , now I could SEE THEM :S

Anyway the show went on. Much kudos to all the persons who eventually trickled in to gives us a near to full house, still more kudos to the pannists who kept the energy flowing. Hopefully I'll give a better account of myself next time.

My favourite things

Chocolate covered brownies with chocolate fudge and chips. Ruby red lollipops. Tatoos and piercings. Hands that make mine look small. Blue skies and beaches. Total trust and comfort. Air travel. Not having a care in the world.

These are a few of My Favourite Things. What are yours?