Emotional

It doesn't happen very often but when it does it disturbs my equilibrium for the entire day. The newspaper headline in the Gleaner today was "Kids die in blaze: Heroic dad jumps into flames to save three, but dies later" . I've read of children being raped and slaughtered, men and women dying through random violence and stray bullets. Not as a one off event or through civil unrest, no. Just daily life in Jamaica land we love. But this one really got me this morning.

Could have been the photo. The mother was obviously "distressed" but she wasn't down on the ground pulling off her clothes like I've seen before. Someone was standing behind her presumably giving her support, but that person wasn't looking overly upset either. Yet something in her stance or face communicated itself to me.

For the first time in years, the Gleaner lead story made me cry.

I have been numb for a long time.

Wedding Plans

One of my best friends is getting married this Saturday and I have the privilege of being her Chief Bridesmaid. Watching her go through these detailed lists of people to invite, choosing a menu, reception area, dress styles ..... it just makes me very eager to go off and elope when it's my turn to get married. Hearing her and her fiance express how tired they were and how happy they would be when it's over only reinforces this view.

I will try my hardest to keep my wedding very simple if I can't elope, which means a morning wedding, ie 10am, immediate family and close friends only read 10 friends each and family, no toasts! No church either, marry me near a river like Blue Mountain Inn , then we (bridal party and guests) spend the rest of the day lyming . Now none of this means that the wedding would be any cheaper than a traditional one like my friend is having, but hopefully we can focus on the most important part which is the fact that two ppl are here to pledge their love before God and friends and make a lifelong commitment to each other.

Hmmm, better make sure I find a boyfriend that not into no fuss and veil and heap of cake. Any takers ? :-D