Learning Curve

I learn at the feet of the great ones before me
The storied and laurelled
The unsung and devious

Where I wait they are swift,
My eyes blinkered by things I am barely conscious of

the awe of the student becomes annoyance
the painful lesson
the wheel cannot be reinvented

annoyance fades to acceptance
fluidity of understanding
temperance of time

I learn at the feet of the great ones before me
my eyes now open
to see the cracks of their soles
and the weariness of their smiles

M. Woodham March 2007

Music I love: 2

Yep this is going to be a regular series. Here's another song by Yoko Kanno from the Cowboy Bebop movie soundtrack, once again lyrics are provided courtesy of stlyrics.com . I found an amv with the song from the last post "No Reply" on You Tube but nothing for this one unfortunately :-(

Artist: Yoko Kanno
Song: Gotta Knock A Little Harder
Lyrics: Tim Jensen

Happiness is just a word to me, and it might have meant a thing or two
If I'd known the difference
Emptiness, a lonely parody, and my life, another smokin' gun
A sign of my indifference

Always keepin' safe inside,where no one ever had a chance
To penetrate a break in
Let me tell you some have tried, but I would slam the door so tight
That they could never get in

Kept my cool under lock and key, and I never shed a tear
Another sign of my condidtion
Fear of love or bitter vanity, that kept me on the run
The main events at my confession

I kept a chain upon my door,that would shake the shame of Cain
Into a blind submission
The burning ghost without a name ,was calling all the same
But I wouldn't listen

The longer I'd stall, the further I'd crawl
The further I'd crawl, the harder I'd fall
I was crawlin' into the fire
The more that I saw, the further I'd fall
The further I'd fall, the lower I'd crawl
I kept fallin' into the fire

Suddenly it occurred to me, the reason for the run and hide
Had totalled my existence
Everything left on the other side, could never be much worse than this
But could I go the distance?

I faced the door and all my shame, tearin' off each piece of chain
Until they all were broken
But no matter how I tried, the other side was locked so tight
That door it wouldn't open

Gave it all that I got, and started to knock
Shouted for someone to open the lock
I just gotta, get through the door

And the more that I knocked, the hotter I got
The hotter I got, the harder I'd knock
I just gotta, break through the door

Gotta knock a little harder, Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder, Break through the door

Music I love

I discovered one of my favourite artists and composers through watching anime ( in particular the series Cowboy Bebop ). While reading throught the credits I realized that all the music from the series was original and had been composed by one person namely Yoko Kanno . Subsequently I've been googling and youtubing and downloading and all that jazz to find out more about her and her music.

Here are the lyrics for one of my favourite songs which comes from the original soundtrack of the Cowboy Bebop movie. (Eventually I will learn how to put music on this site). The lyrics were taken from www.stlyrics.com

Artist: Yoko Kanno
Song: No Reply
Lyrics: Tim Jensen

Like the perfect ending, It won't be long,
Till everything I've ruined has seen me gone,
In time, I pray you'll forgive,
Now you know the man I am, Can you forgive me?

I fall, Like the sands of time,
Like some broken rhyme, At feet no longer there.

If only I could call the rain to melt and wash away the pain you feel
I would
You gave yourself to me and showed me what the truth could be
For that, I say thank you
This was my life
It never made much sense to me...

With every lie that I lived, Part of me would fade,
Into this empty shadow I've become, And now I feel so numb,
I no longer know myself, But I still know you.

I call, And there is no reply,
Like some phantom cry, On ears too far away,

I close my eyes and watch as my life passes by,
The only thing I see is you,
For all the times you walked the line for me and standing by my side, I say thank you,
Here lies my life, It never felt that real to me.

You'll always mean so much to me
And there's no reply, And there's no reply,
You'll never know how much you meant to me,
And there's no reply, And there's no reply,
You'll never know how much you meant to me.

If only I could call the rain to melt and wash away the pain you feel. I would.
You gave yourself to me and showed me what the truth could be.
For that, I say thank you.

This was my life.It never made much sense to me...

I close my eyes and watch as my life passes by,The only thing I see is you,
For all the times you walked the line for me and standing by my side,
I say thank you,
You in my life,
It all meant so much more to me.

Changes 2

Circular thoughts like a dog biting it’s own tail
What breaks the sado- masochistic cycle?
(Assuming a circle can be broken stretched and recreated into a line with an end)
The true desire and willingness for change

Change is frightening
It’s new
I have no experience with it

What is frightening is my refusal to shed childish thinking.
What other universal truth exists but that
Change is constant

Yes! Change with a Capital or common c.
I have already changed without being consciously aware
My root complaint must then be that I am cowardly
And live in fear of the change that I should be

The comfort of the same or the exhilaration of the future?
Bearing in mind change is already unfolding
Without me
How does it end?


Mummy Mel Feb 2007