For Want of...questioning?

I believe everyone is familiar with that poem that tells how a battle was lost all for want of a little nail. It's a reminder to pay attention to the little details for they are more important than they might seem to be. For want of consistent prayer I have little faith. Given a religious background that indicates that in addition to faith one needs grace things might not seem so desperate... yet. I don't buy into the concept of doing things out of fear, not for anything. If you are going to do. say. believe anything you should do it for the love. But the reality is that I am I am not Duncan McLeod and ain't no theme music playing for me. In much the same way that I have been pro active about looking for employment I should take the steps to effect positive change in my spiritual life.

There needs be a difference however, starting fromt the basic building blocks upward with simple questions. What do I hold sacred? Do I believe humans possess souls? Do we have a lasting effect on our spiritual environment ? What are my perceptions of my role (if any) in life?Do I believe that there is a divinity that controls the course of life ?

Like I said. Simple questions.

I come from a background of a middle class Christian family who followed the spirit not the letter of the Bible and were curious about their place in this universe. At a crucial point in life when I was having some strong and seemingly daily conflicts with my immediate family members (read teenage years) I started attending yoga classes with my godmother on life management. Talk about getting a dose of pain relief. It was only a starting point however, as it made me start to question many assumptions I didn't realize I had. Later down the road after another influential point in life (death of mother) my pastor (Methodist church) informs me that the church I grew up in and that my grandmother was a lay preacher for (Unity) was not Christian. (Honestly I haven't even begun examining that one yet). Bwoy, yet another assumption highlighted.

Today it only now strikes me that there might be a non mental reason why I seem like a rolling stone to myself (although you never can tell :-D) but it only points out further reasons to put my faith on a sure footing. Wherever I may eventually choose to place it.